i'm the best i've ever been

it is taking some getting used to. in the past i always functioned on such extremes. the highs were always so high, so exhausting. then the lows were always so low. now there is balance. life is as it should be. but it is taking some getting used to. because i don't seem to feel things as intensely, i feel inspirationally dehydrated. i want to create, but all my senses have been neutralized. i used to feel so strongly. the lows were so bad, but coming out of those lows was always so exhilarating. creatively explosive. none of that was real though. i want to be inspired again. but with where i am. i love where i am. this is real. i have finally achieved balance. but hey... where did my creativity go?
i'm the best i've ever been. but it is taking some getting used to.