Monday, February 18, 2008
we should
help each other. become better. stronger. less socially awkward. instead of isolating, hurting, passively dismissing. we should work on being better. better friends. better listeners. better livers. better dancers. better conversationalists. better roommates. better walkers. better talkers. better better better. lets work on pushing each other up. lets work on loving each other. lets. be. better. at. being.
Saturday, February 9, 2008
sometimes i wish i were someone else
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
to a friend who doesn't read my blog, but to a friend nonetheless.
Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move
Awake but cannot open my eyes
And the weight is crushing down on my lungs
I know I can't breathe
And hope someone will save me this time
And your mother's still calling you insane and high
Swearing it's different this time
And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her
And that god never blessed her insides
Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things
And crawl back into bed to dream of a time
When your heart was open wide and you love things just because
Like the sick and dying
And sometimes when you're on
You're really fucking on
And your friends they sing along
And they love you
But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be better
You'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter or son
And a real good friend
And you'll be awake
You'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest
You'll be brave
You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
To the cries and the wails of the valley below
Your ship may be coming in
You're weak but not giving in
And you'll fight it you'll go out fighting all of them
Sunday, February 3, 2008
a funk has settled over ****Panhandle on this beautiful evening
i need to focus on growing. creating. friends. some school.
i need to have some integrity here. self-awareness. courage. fear. doubt. sadness. happiness. more fear. excitement. art. sewing. routine. spontaneity. giving. loving. learning. growing. authenticity. caring. truth. reality. still more fear. anxiety. complete strength. compassion. loneliness. realization. campfires. courage. courage. courage. fear. laughs. love. openness. vulnerability. twigs. friends. fears. strength. achievement. self acceptance. striving. striving. striving.
for no other reason that it is what i need to do.
i love this world, but sometimes i don't know how to function within it. it isn't conducive to my explosive feelings and creative flow. fuckkkkkkkkk. frustrating.
i basically just don't want to study, but really want to make something pretty.
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